Who among you fears the LORD and obeys his servant? If you are walking in darkness without a ray of light, trust in the Lord and rely on your God. But watch out, you who live in your own light and warm yourselves by your own fires. This is the reward you will receive from me: You will soon fall down in great torment. Isaiah 50:10-11
Isaiah, the prophet, speaks of times when the Faithful walk in pitch darkness. There is not even the dimmest ray of light to insure the next step is a safe one. Candidly and soberly, the prophet speaks to circumstances that require complete trust in the sovereignty of the LORD, and reliance on the character of God. Truly, blind faith.
Then comes the admonition: Watch out, he says. These are the moments when in the blackness of the journey we are tempted to light our own torches and build our own fires. . . always a bad choice response.
As difficult as it is to comprehend, our best response is to live in that darkness, and resist the temptation to depend on torches of our own making. Fearing the spiritual darkness and chill, we can set out to surround ourself with some impressive fires.
Here is the good part . . . God in his grace rewards those efforts . . . with torment!
Mercifully, we come to a point when we run out of fuel for our pitiful little fires. It is a tough but wonderful moment. Torment becomes our ally, and we stop, and we put out our fires, and we sit quietly in the darkness, and we wait for God to ignite a fire, and shine his light.